Hello dear classmates,
I feel slightly intimidated by the talented writers we have in this class but it's nice to read such intriguing discussions. This by far my most fun class I've ever had!
My favorite film, or at least the one that caught my attention the most was, Miss Representation. Being a filmmaker myself, this struck a chord inside me that is still humming. Furthermore, being a FEMALE filmmaker, I feel more pressure than I ever had before.
It's always baffled me, even when I was very young, that women and men have certain expectations and roles in life. "It's a man's world", my Mom always says. Growing up I always did "boyish" things, but I never thought it was weird or made me less of a girl, it was just the fact that I liked doing those things; end of story. As I got older, I began to notice how different I acted from the other girls in school, but it never changed who I was. I didn't stop playing sports or hanging out with guys or stop watching "dick flicks" (that one was for you Birchall).
As I get older now, I realize that a lot of my likes are again more "boyish". I ride a ninja Kawasaki bullet bike, I love twisted action movies, most of my friends are guys and my lovely career path is dominated by men. The film, Miss Representation, really made me think about my decisions and why I made them. I never really thought about the whole gender thing with this much scrutiny, I just did and do what makes me happy.
Some of the information was old news, but the accounts from women in the spotlight were a real eye-opener for me. It made me angry. But aside from the emotional feelings that poured out, it made me feel pressure in my field. I knew it was rare to see women in the film industry, even at school I'm the only girl in some of my classes. And even after I asked in the Q&A about what advice they had for female filmmakers, their answers didn't give me much confidence.
Not only is the pressure I feel purely from being a woman, but being a good representer of women. I've always wanted to see more dynamic women up on the silver screen, but very rarely is that wish fulfilled. I feel, more now than I ever, that it is my job to be a good role model for strong, independent women, and I can't wait to get started.